-ಇಲ್ಲವಾಗುವುದು : A meditation on learning to leave gently, without resistance or regret.

ಇಲ್ಲವಾಗುವುದು : A meditation on learning to leave gently, without resistance or regret


One day, I too
will become less—
less quieter in memory,
less lighter on the earth.

So let me begin the rehearsal gently—
to speak less for noise
and more for meaning,
to hold less for possession
and more for care.

Let me loosen my grip
on what will not come with me—
the arguments, the proofs,
the names carved for permanence
on dissolving walls.

I will learn to walk softer,
so even the dust forgives my passing.
I will learn to give fully,
so absence finds me emptied, not erased.

Each evening,
I will practice disappearance—
in the slow unmaking of light,
in the silence that follows a song.

Perhaps fading
is not a loss but a return—
the way mist returns to air,
and air to the wide, waiting sky.

If I must go,
let it be like this—
not sudden,
not sorrowful,
but certain and clear—
like a lamp
that knows when dawn has come,
and quietly goes out.

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